Life diaries #4: Good vs. Evil – a rambling

Good will triumph over evil, they said. Always, they said. That’s how I first came across the word “triumph”. In my little mind, the word seemed like a powerful talisman. As a child with rose-tinted glasses, I was gullible. I believed in the seemingly foolproof assurance that evil will always be defeated. But maybe, they forgot to add the clause “terms and conditions apply” to that statement. Maybe, they did it on purpose. There’s this another saying where I come from – the bad kind of people will reach greater heights. The higher they grow, the greater their fall will be. But they will fall one day. It all sounds great in theory. But in reality, we may run out of patience by then. The older I was, the more aware I became of the exceptions. For example, good did triumph over the evil at last, but the “at last” suffix that they forgot to add made all the difference in the world.

In our lives, we may have an experience that will change us forever. Moments, events or situations that shake the foundation of our core beliefs and leave us reeling. Moments that literally feel like a punch to our gut. We may feel like we’ve gone through a powerful earthquake and though the tremors have died down, we still can’t seem to stop shaking.

I’ve always heard people say that “good people don’t live long lives. God might love them too much. That’s why he calls them way too soon.” This dialogue is inevitably repeated whenever people die unexpectedly, in the prime of their lives. They brand the tragedy as fate (read: a predestined event that can’t be changed) and sigh in unison. Now, let me interject one thing at this point – I’m not an atheist. Never have been, and probably never will be. I’m a Hindu by birth and practice. And yes, I believe that a supreme force exists, who is much more powerful than us.

And yet, when I sit down and really think about it, I wonder if the Gods and Goddesses that we pray to are as deaf, blind, indifferent and cold-hearted as the stones their idols are made of. At the moment, my hotline with the heavens seems to be down. I’m navigating through quite muddy waters. Hopefully, I’ll get back on track soon.

They say, God will test their followers, subject them to many hardships… to see if they’re worthy. But a part of me wonders if that isn’t somewhat sadistic. What kind of a being can watch their loved ones suffer and still make them suffer more, just to test their mettle? Don’t bother answering. It’s rhetorical. I’m perfectly aware that comments about how religion, worship and prayer are just another man-made invention may flood this post.

But still when I come across events like these… where injustice is freely meted out to those who don’t deserve it at all, there are moments when I question all my beliefs. It makes me wonder where and what the world is headed for! We live in a world where it’s quite commonplace to hear news about children being raped and killed, perfectly healthy people lose their lives due to freak accidents, brain aneurysms and the like, people in authority abuse their power to suit their evil choice, and even the elderly are not safe from the clutches of human monsters. Scary as that may sound, that is the grim reality of the world we live in.

It’s events like these that make us stop and think. Such drastic, tragic events make us realize how much we take for granted. They make us realize how wrong it is for us to be caught up in trivial things, to keep living in the past or to unnecessarily worry about a future. After all, it’s human life we are talking about. Who knows if we’ll live to see another day? And in the light of that thought, suddenly everything seems so insignificant. Doesn’t it? Why be caught up in the past the we can do nothing about? Why worry about the future that isn’t guaranteed in the first place? It makes much more sense to live in the moment, to cherish every single second of our lives. Life is unpredictable. We can’t foresee the future. (Even if anybody claims that they can see into the future, it’s not like we’re going to believe them. Well, a majority of the population are not going to buy it. I won’t either.) It makes much more sense to live every single day like it’s our last day on Earth. Because we’re not getting any of it back. There is no undo or redo button in life. Let’s keep trying to find the silver lining, even in the darkest of times.

Be rest assured, this post isn’t a result of the coronavirus. It’s just something that has been keeping me up at nights, gnawing away at me. Life tends to have that effect. If this post seemed rather disturbing, contradictory or conflicting to you, I’m not at all surprised. It just goes on to show how troubled and conflicted my mind is. My mind, beliefs and my brain are all at war. Now that I have got it all out in the open, maybe I can find a semblance of peace. If you have stuck with me till here, you have my heartfelt gratitude for reading.

There was a time when a rambling like this would have headed straight to my journal. It wouldn’t have seen the light of the day. But I’ve decided to throw caution to the wind. You only live once.

If something resonated with you, do let me know. Do let me know if you have a different opinion too. Conversations matter.

Stay safe. Take care.

© 2020 Shweta Suresh. All rights reserved.

14 thoughts on “Life diaries #4: Good vs. Evil – a rambling

  1. Like you, I also wonder why God takes good people away young and lets bad people get away with murder . I too am waiting for the wheels of justice to turn but they just seem stuck . But then I take comfort in the fact that each one has his destiny.

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  2. If you think of life in a body as a flash of light, we’re not here very long in comparison to the universe. If it’s true that evil is dealt with after our bodies die, then evil’s punishment will least far longer that his/her life. What if there is reincarnation and Karma? I can’t imagine a more useless punishment than sending us into a different body without knowing what it is we’re paying for.

    When I was taking an ancient history course, the professor said that one of the things you learn is that law and justice rarely have anything to do with each other. The question of good vs evil has been pondered by people a lot smarter than me. It’s doubtful that any of us will understand it better.

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    1. Very wise words, indeed. Being an Indian, I have many legends and stories about reincarnation and Karma. At times, it can seem so confusing. This post was written in response to a piece of shocking news I had received. A colleague of mine who was perfectly healthy had a brain hemorrhage and succumbed to it shortly afterward. That got me wondering.

      Yes, it’s an age-old question – good vs. evil. I wonder if I’ll understand better with time. Law and justice rarely have anything to do with each other? Would you please care to elaborate more on this. You’ve caught my attention.

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      1. There are so many examples of law and justice being at odds. Here’s one that blew me away (this happened in the 1980’s) Someone was stealing very expensive equipment from a farmer. The farmer, tired of law enforcement inaction, set up two shotguns so that when his large equipment doors were open he would be rid of the thief. The shotguns blew the thief’s legs off instead of killing him. The thief took him to court and won. What did he get? The farmers property.

        I heard that story when I was taking a self defense course taught by a former police officer. He said that if someone comes onto your land, make sure they’re dead — and, just like my professor of ancient history, he cited the fact that law and justice rarely have anything to do with each other.

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      2. Yikes! That’s one hell of an example. And he must have had a hell of a lawyer! The advice from the former police officer is mind-blowing! Thank you so much for clearing that up for me. That’s food for thought indeed.

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  3. I empathize with your feelings, Shweta–the time it takes for good to triumph can take an agonizingly long while…it may not come during our lifetime on Earth. The sense of futility and despair I feel sometimes can wear my soul down to a pile of dust… BUT, I must believe and put my faith in the Living God of the Bible who promises His goodness and justice will be ultimately victorious, and that He will turn evil plans to good blessings–even within many of our lives–by His mighty and mysterious hand. I’ll stop there, with respect to your religious beliefs. I pray for you to have peace, no fears about the virus. Much love, Rhen ❤

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    1. Yes, at times, it’s difficult to hold on to our faith and we may go astray. But we’ll eventually find our way back. This post was written in response to a piece of shocking news I had received. A colleague of mine who was perfectly healthy had a brain hemorrhage and succumbed to it shortly afterward. It made me question a lot of things. Thank you for reading and sharing your thoughts. Stay safe. Take care. 🙂


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